The day of your arrival is getting Closer,

I am pretty swollen most of the time now, and my blood pressure is up - they say that is due to the swelling, they don't know why I am swelling the way that I am, they have said it could be because of the way you are sitting in me, or just because that is how my body does pregnant!  They have put me on restricted duties, limited work, and I now test my blood pressure at home four times a day, check my pee for proteins, and sit and record your movements three times a day to make sure that you are just fine, and that I am just fine!!!  The Concerns had me concerned at first, but both of us seem to be fine, so now it is just another part of the job of growing you!  Which by the way is the most important job I think I have ever had! 
The count down is on we have around nine weeks left before your due date!  I want you to stay in there and grow healthy but at the sametime I am more than ready to be done being pregnant.  I am more than ready to have you in my arms!  I am sure once you are in my arms there will be days and times that I wish you were still in me(so that you are only mine, and I have an excuse to need the extra sleep and rest). 
You still haven't kicked your dad - your movements have become a lot stronger!  When I put the ipad on me to hear your heart beat, you kick the ipad, or when I rest my hands on my belly you kick my arms, or when I lay on either side you kick the bed.  When I am counting your movements I sit and feel them from the outside to make sure they are strong ones!  But little one your dad puts your hands on my tummy to feel you and you seem to know it, you immediately stop moving and a grooving, kicking or hitting or whatever it is you are doing in there.  Your poor dad!  He has plans if you don't come out before the nine weeks are up he will take me on a drive on the back roads and on a quad ride to shake you out of there -- if he could I think he would do it now, he asked if we could until he realized that you are only about 3 pounds so we would be in the hospital while you grew for a while and neither one of us want that, so he is patiently and impatiently awaiting your arrival!
We both love you so much already!  I am so excited for the day that I can hold you in my arms, and so excited to see you in your dad's arms! 
We love you to the moon and back and back again!

May is Approaching

As we grow our second baby in my belly, and the days and weeks pass by and the baby keeps growing I am still at times reminded at the one that we lost. 
We are now about a month away from when that bean would have joined our family.  We are excited about what is and what is to come! Don't get me wrong at all when I write this, the miracle that is growing in me is incredible, and we can not wait to hold her in our arms!  But in the back of my head I can't help but wonder why we lost the first one, what did I do wrong, why wasn't that baby meant to be.  I mean if it was meant to be we wouldn't be having this one that is growing so nicely that has caused us so much joy! But sometimes I just wonder what happened.  We have had more time to get to know the bean that is growing in me right now, feeling her kicks and jabs and hiccups.  But both pregnancies we were overcome with joy, excitement and love from the moment we suspected that there was something there!  Just sometimes I wonder, what happened.  I know it happened for a reason but it didn't make it any easier at the time.  Just like I know with this pregnancy things in the beginning that overwhelmingly stressed us out, being told something was possibly wrong, and then finding out that everything was possibly right, was a hard thing to go through BUT it happened for a reason. 
But as May approaches and the due date of the first baby, which didn't have the chance to grow that big, I just wonder what would have been, what happened but all at the same time am more than excited about what is! A hard thing to explain!

28 Weeks

28 weeks = 7 months = start of the third trimester = you are due to arrive in 12 weeks!!! 

I am feeling overwhelmed with the list of things that I want to have done before your arrival.  What is left to be done really could be done after you arrive, but really the only thing I want on my to do list after you arrive is to snuggle you, to feed you, change you and love you.  So I slowly will work away at the rest, hopefully things will get caught up and I will feel more relaxed and ready to do nothing but hang out with you once you arrive in our arms!  This weekend is officially being called Tax weekend, it is where you and I will sit at the kitchen table and complete the tax forms(not a fun job but someone has to do it, my vote is that next year it is someone else).  To entertain myself between taxes and give myself a brain break, we have some house cleaning to do and some garden prep work to do and we have to run to town to get some stuff for work, and I have some of your stuff I would like to get ready like your bottles, the breast pump and some soothers. 

You are growing like crazy!  I can feel the stretching and the extra weight -- once I heal from you coming out of me, you and I have some grand work out sessions ahead of us!  I thought that you were maybe turning yesterday as you have been feet down for pretty much the whole time, that I can tell anyways.  BUT based on where I can feel you kicking and where I can find your heart rate, I think you did turn, well maybe you turned a bit, you possibly may be a bit sideways now.  I guess we will see what you do in the next couple weeks. 
From the what to expect page, it says you are now 16 inches long, you must be squished, and I am guessing you will just become more squished even if we keep growing together.  It also says that you are over 2 pounds now, it is crazy to think of how much you have grown in such a short time.  Although that short time has felt like a long time. 
Yesterday when your dad and I were talking about how far along you were with your growth, he said "only seven months, this is taking forever"  I think he is anxious to meet you and hold you in his arms.  You still haven't kicked for him you stinker, you will be moving or jabbing me, and as soon as he comes near you are as still as a statute.  Last night I was laying on my side reading and my one arm was resting on the side of my stomach and it was almost like you were pushing me off, so I called him to let him try and he sat there pressing waiting to see if you would push back.  Instead of you pushing him you start pushing on the side that was laying on the bed.  I wonder what you are going to be like to him once you come out, are you going to torcher him, or is he going to be your calm safe place. 
We are both so excited about your coming into our arms!!!  Keep growing baby, keep getting stronger baby, and keep turning baby, so we have a very short hospital stay, we want to be in and out so that we can be cuddled up at home!
We love you to the moon and back and back again!!!!!  I cant even tell you how much we love you already, you have stolen our hearts!

27 Weeks

I took the day off work today so I could feel like I was getting ontop of house work again, especially with the Easter weekend here and everyone gathering around, I also wanted to start some yard work, BUT you seemed to move and groove a lot last night on my bladder AND I think we are growing again because I have been uncomfortable, so I am tired today AND it snowed!!!  So I have been slowly working on house cleaning and taxes - some exciting times :)
Its funny when things get crazy and I feel a tab bit lonely I sit for a second and I feel you nudging me and I realize that I am not alone at all you are moving everywhere with me, and poor you is doing everything with me including cleaning house. 
This morning I sat down and wrote out the weeks on the calendar, and it is incredible how much time we have left and at the same time how much time we do not have left before your arrival.  Don't worry your room is all ready for you, I am working on another blanket for you, we have some clothes and diapers for you, and I just need to wash your bottles and suckies up and those will all be ready for you too!  But it is a shock to notice how much time we have left before you arrival and I am sure it will pass quickly!!!  WE are ready to hold you, just not yet, I want to hold you inside a while longer so you are good and strong!  I think we have finally picked for sure your name, we now just need to finish the discussions over your middle name! 

We love you more then we ever thought we could imagine already!!!  And are patiently and impatiently awaiting your arrival all.