36 Weeks

You have grown immensely!  For a short time it looked like you had dropped into position, which you have, but now you have grown to take up all the space, so it looks like I am carrying high again, although I am not you are still low, you are just so big you are taking up all the space that I have.  We had an ultra sound which you didn't cooperate all that well at, we were able to see the back of your head, and sort of make out that your face was covered by your hands, and see your legs all squished up and your bum, you also flashed us so we know that you are a girl.  At the ultra sound you measured in at just over 7 pounds, they say that they aren't 100% accurate with their readings, which I hope not because we still potentially have 4 weeks left of you growing in me! 

Your movements are becoming less, because you have less room to move in.  My swelling is becoming more, and your jabs when you do squirm are becoming more powerful! 

Everyone is excited for your arrival, some even worrying about how they will know you are here and when they will know you are here so that they can be the first to meet you!  The love for you is extreme!!!  Which is just the way it should be, if you learn anything in life I want it to be what true happiness is, and what it is to be truly loved beyond all measure!!!! 

You are so important to us already, you are so loved already, you are so special to us, I cant even put into words how much you mean to us already!!!  And we are ready for you!!  We are ready for you to be in our arms, to hold you, to rock you, to swaddle you, to tuck you into bed, to feed you, and to tell you even more everyday how much we love you!!!!!!   

32 weeks

Its been a while since I posted anything.  We had a great mothers day!  It was somewhat relaxing!  You are continuing to grow well, your movements have changed to jabs as you squirm.  You are no longer punching and kicking you are squirming around in there with what little room you have, with pieces of you poking me with almost every movement.

31 Weeks and 4 Days

All my monitoring of us has shown me some great consistencies of me and you!  My blood pressure has now been fairly consistent for two weeks, the odd morning have been at my normal, but most of the time I have been a little bit higher than normal, but nothing close to what I was (so I am taking that as a good sign).  Your movements are fairly consistent, you are most active usually in the morning hours, and then again around 2 in the afternoon, and then again between 5 and 6, and then again when I am having a shower before bed, and again around midnight(you wake me up then with your movements).  I can also make you active by eating something cold, something sweet or some fruit. 
You still don't move for your dad, last night I was laying in bed while he was getting ready to go and check cows and I said she is going crazy in here, and he said settle down and you were as still as can be as soon as his voice was near.  He has now titled himself the baby whisperer. 
Yesterday I felt great, I didn't feel pregnant.  I knew you were in there as you were moving along with everything I did, but I didn't feel like a whale moving around(until about 3 in the afternoon, then I was a bit stiff), my center of gravity wasn't off, much like I feel this morning!  Yesterday because I was feeling so great, I did some much needed yard work, we weeded three out of four of the tree rows, and cleaned them up - I hope our tree stubs start to grow sometime!  They all have buds on them, so there is life but they are all so small still, the little saplings, I am sure they will grow one day, I hope they will, if our dog lets them.  On top of weeding we also planted all of the annuals which we had picked up earlier in the week, we have flowers in some of our pots and strawberries growing and already producing fruit!  We also cut some of the grass, as much as I could handle, on the mower we did.  We got a lot done yesterday, you and I, much to your dad's protests.  You see the doctor put us on rest, which to your dad means that I shouldn't be going to work still, and I shouldn't be doing anything labourous, to keep you and me safe.  But no one is taking care of the garden and no one is taking care of the things on my to do list, and I don't have the staff right now to not go to work.  SO you and I work slowly through stuff to get it done! And we make a great team!  You seemed to like all the work yesterday, you were a busy bee moving inside of me. 
By the way you were moving yesterday, I think there is a chance that you finally turned around and are upside down awaiting your time to come out.  But I know there is a chance you can still turn around again, as there is still time so we will see what your silly self does. 
Your dad and I love talking about what it will be like when you arrive, even though we don't have a clue what it will really be like, what your personality will be or what your needs will be(how often you will want to eat ect.) But it is fun to imagine.  We are both so curious to how things will be, and what you will be like, and who exactly you will look like!  I was off in my count last week, this week it is nine weeks until your due date, I guess now we are at about eight and a half weeks until then.  And it is crazy to think that there is chance a slight chance that we will could see you in less than that, right now it is safe for you to come out in about six weeks and you could magically arrive on your own in that time. 
Your dad and I love you already, and I cant imagine our love for you growing anymore, but I know that it will, as I couldn't comprehend my love for your dad growing anymore but it has, and there is the fact that people tell me once you are in my arms and I start to see you grow it is in then that I will actually understand my love for you, and it will grow with each day. 
We love you to the moon and back and back again! 

The day of your arrival is getting Closer,

I am pretty swollen most of the time now, and my blood pressure is up - they say that is due to the swelling, they don't know why I am swelling the way that I am, they have said it could be because of the way you are sitting in me, or just because that is how my body does pregnant!  They have put me on restricted duties, limited work, and I now test my blood pressure at home four times a day, check my pee for proteins, and sit and record your movements three times a day to make sure that you are just fine, and that I am just fine!!!  The Concerns had me concerned at first, but both of us seem to be fine, so now it is just another part of the job of growing you!  Which by the way is the most important job I think I have ever had! 
The count down is on we have around nine weeks left before your due date!  I want you to stay in there and grow healthy but at the sametime I am more than ready to be done being pregnant.  I am more than ready to have you in my arms!  I am sure once you are in my arms there will be days and times that I wish you were still in me(so that you are only mine, and I have an excuse to need the extra sleep and rest). 
You still haven't kicked your dad - your movements have become a lot stronger!  When I put the ipad on me to hear your heart beat, you kick the ipad, or when I rest my hands on my belly you kick my arms, or when I lay on either side you kick the bed.  When I am counting your movements I sit and feel them from the outside to make sure they are strong ones!  But little one your dad puts your hands on my tummy to feel you and you seem to know it, you immediately stop moving and a grooving, kicking or hitting or whatever it is you are doing in there.  Your poor dad!  He has plans if you don't come out before the nine weeks are up he will take me on a drive on the back roads and on a quad ride to shake you out of there -- if he could I think he would do it now, he asked if we could until he realized that you are only about 3 pounds so we would be in the hospital while you grew for a while and neither one of us want that, so he is patiently and impatiently awaiting your arrival!
We both love you so much already!  I am so excited for the day that I can hold you in my arms, and so excited to see you in your dad's arms! 
We love you to the moon and back and back again!

May is Approaching

As we grow our second baby in my belly, and the days and weeks pass by and the baby keeps growing I am still at times reminded at the one that we lost. 
We are now about a month away from when that bean would have joined our family.  We are excited about what is and what is to come! Don't get me wrong at all when I write this, the miracle that is growing in me is incredible, and we can not wait to hold her in our arms!  But in the back of my head I can't help but wonder why we lost the first one, what did I do wrong, why wasn't that baby meant to be.  I mean if it was meant to be we wouldn't be having this one that is growing so nicely that has caused us so much joy! But sometimes I just wonder what happened.  We have had more time to get to know the bean that is growing in me right now, feeling her kicks and jabs and hiccups.  But both pregnancies we were overcome with joy, excitement and love from the moment we suspected that there was something there!  Just sometimes I wonder, what happened.  I know it happened for a reason but it didn't make it any easier at the time.  Just like I know with this pregnancy things in the beginning that overwhelmingly stressed us out, being told something was possibly wrong, and then finding out that everything was possibly right, was a hard thing to go through BUT it happened for a reason. 
But as May approaches and the due date of the first baby, which didn't have the chance to grow that big, I just wonder what would have been, what happened but all at the same time am more than excited about what is! A hard thing to explain!

28 Weeks

28 weeks = 7 months = start of the third trimester = you are due to arrive in 12 weeks!!! 

I am feeling overwhelmed with the list of things that I want to have done before your arrival.  What is left to be done really could be done after you arrive, but really the only thing I want on my to do list after you arrive is to snuggle you, to feed you, change you and love you.  So I slowly will work away at the rest, hopefully things will get caught up and I will feel more relaxed and ready to do nothing but hang out with you once you arrive in our arms!  This weekend is officially being called Tax weekend, it is where you and I will sit at the kitchen table and complete the tax forms(not a fun job but someone has to do it, my vote is that next year it is someone else).  To entertain myself between taxes and give myself a brain break, we have some house cleaning to do and some garden prep work to do and we have to run to town to get some stuff for work, and I have some of your stuff I would like to get ready like your bottles, the breast pump and some soothers. 

You are growing like crazy!  I can feel the stretching and the extra weight -- once I heal from you coming out of me, you and I have some grand work out sessions ahead of us!  I thought that you were maybe turning yesterday as you have been feet down for pretty much the whole time, that I can tell anyways.  BUT based on where I can feel you kicking and where I can find your heart rate, I think you did turn, well maybe you turned a bit, you possibly may be a bit sideways now.  I guess we will see what you do in the next couple weeks. 
From the what to expect page, it says you are now 16 inches long, you must be squished, and I am guessing you will just become more squished even if we keep growing together.  It also says that you are over 2 pounds now, it is crazy to think of how much you have grown in such a short time.  Although that short time has felt like a long time. 
Yesterday when your dad and I were talking about how far along you were with your growth, he said "only seven months, this is taking forever"  I think he is anxious to meet you and hold you in his arms.  You still haven't kicked for him you stinker, you will be moving or jabbing me, and as soon as he comes near you are as still as a statute.  Last night I was laying on my side reading and my one arm was resting on the side of my stomach and it was almost like you were pushing me off, so I called him to let him try and he sat there pressing waiting to see if you would push back.  Instead of you pushing him you start pushing on the side that was laying on the bed.  I wonder what you are going to be like to him once you come out, are you going to torcher him, or is he going to be your calm safe place. 
We are both so excited about your coming into our arms!!!  Keep growing baby, keep getting stronger baby, and keep turning baby, so we have a very short hospital stay, we want to be in and out so that we can be cuddled up at home!
We love you to the moon and back and back again!!!!!  I cant even tell you how much we love you already, you have stolen our hearts!

27 Weeks

I took the day off work today so I could feel like I was getting ontop of house work again, especially with the Easter weekend here and everyone gathering around, I also wanted to start some yard work, BUT you seemed to move and groove a lot last night on my bladder AND I think we are growing again because I have been uncomfortable, so I am tired today AND it snowed!!!  So I have been slowly working on house cleaning and taxes - some exciting times :)
Its funny when things get crazy and I feel a tab bit lonely I sit for a second and I feel you nudging me and I realize that I am not alone at all you are moving everywhere with me, and poor you is doing everything with me including cleaning house. 
This morning I sat down and wrote out the weeks on the calendar, and it is incredible how much time we have left and at the same time how much time we do not have left before your arrival.  Don't worry your room is all ready for you, I am working on another blanket for you, we have some clothes and diapers for you, and I just need to wash your bottles and suckies up and those will all be ready for you too!  But it is a shock to notice how much time we have left before you arrival and I am sure it will pass quickly!!!  WE are ready to hold you, just not yet, I want to hold you inside a while longer so you are good and strong!  I think we have finally picked for sure your name, we now just need to finish the discussions over your middle name! 

We love you more then we ever thought we could imagine already!!!  And are patiently and impatiently awaiting your arrival all.